Wedges at last

This was meant to be added to my last post. I couldn't be more excited for Spring and summer and what comes with the warm weather? cute wedges!!! i love these. I have been looking for a long time for some salmon colored ones and look what i found down at City Creek at the best store ever, Love Culture!! I have yet to wear the other ones which might i add i got for a killer deal at Ross, yep there not lying when they say "dress for less".

Crafty

So i try to be crafty every now and again and instead of throwing away our whole screen door why not make some earring holders right? well here are two i have done so far, pretty easy to do. If anyone wants or needs screen to make some i have PLENTY!

Bring on 2012!!!!

So can i just say i am soooo ready for 2012 to be here and say goodbye to 2011. It has been a crazy year so far and things only can get better right?

So to add to our long journey of infertility we did our 2nd attempt of IVF with 2 frozen and once again no success. I never thought it would come to this point but we are here and have to figure out where to go now. Lots of big decisions to make.  BUMMER!! One thing we have realized through this whole journey so far is that there are so many other people out there experiencing the same trial and we have them and there stories to comfort us knowing we are not alone.

On a happier note i love the holidays! We have been doing the 25 days of christmas with me giving josh 12 days and then him doing the other 12 for me. I love to see what little thing is in the bag every day or see his face when he opens the most random gift, for example, i gave him a matchbox range rover because that is his dream car and i knew that was the only one i will ever be able to afford!
We have a few Fam Damily parties that we are looking forward too! What is better than good food and good company right?!

HaPpY HoLiDaYs EvErYoNe!!!!

HAPPY TURKEY DAY!

Happy Turkey Day to EVERYONE!!!


The holidays have finally arrived and are in full force! I love this time of year that we are able to spend time with our families and of course BLACK FRIDAY!  We have a little tradition of going to fashion place mall at midnight and watching all the crazy people run around and wait in line for hours for good deals. My most favorite part is going and getting a pretzel at pretzel maker! Needless to say its a cheap trip to the mall and very entertaining!
I am thankful for so many things in my life including my awesome husband josh, my parents, siblings, all of my extended family including josh's family and friends. Without all of you i wouldn't be who i am today (which is kinda scary :)) We are so excited to ring in the holidays with our families and catch up. With that said we are even more excited for the New Year and what it has in store for us! 2012 will be here before we know it and we are READY!!! 


Happy Turkey Day,  eat lots of turkey, and good luck to those of you who are going to face all the crazy people out there shopping tonight!

Really.. really long post, popcorn will probably help you out!

 Ok so i have been debating for a really long time what i should update my blog with since not a whole lot really goes on in our lives but, i am home this weekend while josh is gone to LA and realized ya know what we have been through a lot the past couple years and now is the time i feel like i can share.

 Well i follow facebook 24/7 guilty (im lame), and love to see girls posting about being pregnant and their cute pictures. But there is one thing i hate seeing/reading is when they complain about how sick they are, "im so fat", and they dont think they can make it to the end.. on and on. Ya know what, what about those of us who cant get pregnant? I would give anything to feel sick everyday and give it all i could to barely be able to crawl out of bed for work in the morning just knowing i had a new life growing inside of me. 

WE have been through a lot, more than i could have ever imagined in the world of INFERTILITY! I never realized the miracle of bringing a new life into the world than i have learned over the past few years. Infertility is a crazy complex word that i never thought i would ever have to even think twice about. But guess what i was wrong. 

I have always wanted a family and be able to be a young and fun mom like my mom was and is. (love ya mom :)) Well come to find out after not preventing after 2 1/2 years being married and nothing coming out of it i figured it was time to maybe take it more seriously Went to the doctor last March 2010 and they told me everything was normal including a HSG i had done previously in December 2009 fun stuff i tell ya :), and that maybe we should check on my husbands end again.(which we already new was abnormal and he had surgery in february 2010 to try and increase our chances for pregnancy).Things still weren't great at that point but, we were told not to be discouraged because his surgery he had takes about 6 months for full effect. Well we decided last September to try AI (artificial insemination) and felt GREAT about it. Well guess what....no success along with the next two attempts in October and November 2010. 

Frustrated? YES. Confused? Yes. Sad? Yes 

All of these at this point were constantly going through our minds. 

We re-grouped and decided 2011 was our year and we were ready for a fresh start. We celebrated our 3rd Anniversary together more in love than ever. A few months went by and reality set in again and we decided it was time to meet with a specialist and see if there was another option besides the insanely expensive In-vitro. We met with Dr. Richards (who is AWESOME)and immediately felt comfortable with him. After 2 hours in his office and a fantastic tour of their facility we new our answer more clear than ever, In-Vitro here we come! 

(sorry this is so long trying to cut out all the lame details)

We knew are plan from there on out, from having a phone chat with the other doctor who flies in from LA (Dr. Marrs) to help with procedure, to the lovely daily shots of hormones, Labs..labs and more labs, and ultrasounds to monitor levels and eggs!(needless to say josh was a champ putting up with my random crying episodes) 

Egg retrieval day August 26th, 10 eggs successfully retrieved. In the meantime our embryos growing, lost 3 with 7 still growing healthy.

August 31st, egg transfer of 2 healthy embryos. 2 were frozen.

After this i felt all the crazy symptoms of being pregnant i never felt before and was so excited until the next wednesday rolled around, i knew something wasn't right. TO sum it all up went and got my labs drawn very low HCG was 12 not good at all at this point and was losing the pregnancy. Went again monday and it was 0. And it was all over with..............................

I was devastated at this point knowing so many people were on our side and they would all be so disappointed by the news. The next little while was hard and more frustrating than ever and there was no explanation why it didn't work. Back to square one.

WE all have trials in our lives some bigger than others. This is our trial and surprisingly i have grown so much as a person and we have learned to lean on not only each other in our hardest times but also our heavenly father. We have all heard this a billion times, "Heavenly Father has a plan for us, and when its meant to happen it will". I can 100% say i believe this now. I can't say that in this trial it means i will be able to have a child myself (which i hope more than anything)one day but adoption is something i feel sooo strong about and have always wanted to adopt and if thats what happens i wouldn't hesitate for one minute. 

This is our crazy journey this far not including dumb house repairs,searching for that infamous money tree that is growing somewhere out there, and trying to convince our dog that she is not a human.

Thanks for all your support i love each and everyone one of you so much for all your support and advice during this craziness. We love you all so much! Josh your the best husband i could ever ask for and am excited for the future with you whatever it may be! 

-Trish

I WISH......

So we were at dinner the other night with our good friend donny and he came across an amazing picture that i thought had been lost. Luckily enough it has been found and now you can all see how awesome me and josh looked when we went to Hawaii........ I WISH!!!!! :)

Halloween Craft Project

So this picture doesn't do this justice. I made a candy corn tree and love it. I only wish that i had a real one that always gave me candy.